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matsujun omedetou!

曲：给我你的爱 - Tank

otanjoubi omedetou! matsumoto jun 23 le. hahas. i havent written this in ages. remember when i used to keep track of arashi members birthday and make sure i post a blog entry at 11pm singapore so tt it'll be midnight in japan. fangirl stuff i think. but well, i think im cured of it, though their songs do still make me happy. and matsujun happens to be a great artiste so yah. okay lah. for all those stubbron friends who dont want to admit they are now japan crazy because of me, this is matsujun. hahas. 23! finally! arashi also entering 7th anniversary, congrats! looking back, i think they had a great journey since 1999. ^^

took some time off to be by myself today. went back to the hotel and crapped with ah joe ah ford and wilson. hahas joe leaving for st. petersburg on friday, tmd shuang. sorry cnt stand that he's staying at grand hotel europe which is probably the most expensive hotel there for FREE. his first overseas trip and st.petersburg?! heard he asked calvin whether the aeroplane got toilet not. i laughed till i cried man. then empire to see audrey berry ah marc.. and everyone else. woots! heard this year's staff night theme very the fun lahs. want to go. but well. i would have to go back to work then can go wor. a bit er, lazy.

national library after tt. more agatha christies, but this time only found 3 books i havent read before, which means i wont have any more agathas to read after this. oh no. anws, i geh kiang tried taking bus 61 in the rush hour. from 5.30pm, i sat the bus past chinatown, cantonment rd, psa, alexandra, commonwealth, clementi, bukit timah, and finally bukit batok. took me freakin one and a half hours. reached west mall at 7pm. but it was funny actually, thinking back. my butt really did hurt.

do not take 61.
why am i still online?
ask tt crazy boy.

hey a haiku! no lah, sorry just wrote crap. im tired, and not asleep. >_< hahas.

velda.

books.

曲：12月のリング –　サスケ

i have never been a fan of terrorism books, yet i have read quite a few. i think it was jeffrey archer's Kane and Abel that got me wondering about war and stuff. it was actually sitting in a corner of my bookshelf neglected for at least a couple of years until i, bored with nora roberts, picked it up to see why my aunt lavished praise on it. i was hooked from the start, and up till now i seriously think it is one of the best novels i have ever read. i cried and laughed with the characters, and a book that can make me do that proved its worth.

anw, back to terrorism and counterterrorism books. tom clancy's Rainbow Six was so exciting that i completely forgot my gender and read on till i finished all 897 pages of it - the paperback version. and so last night i continued reading another book - vince flynn's transfer of power. i had just reached the part where the white house got attacked by terrorists and secret service agents have been shot dead. very cliche eh. i cant believe im even admitting i read these stuff. hahas. but i couldnt put down the book, and it was morning when i finished it.

there's some attraction i think, to these kind of stuff. you like reading about highly trained Navy SEALs or FBI, CIA agents successfully killing terrorists and everything. it sorts of satisfies me. hahas. so i think i will reread rainbow six. too much agatha christie harms the brain sometimes, because you suddenly realise you notice clues to the murderer faster than before. tts no good, i like being surprised in the end. so yah. tom clancy!

velda.

raffles. and ching choon!

曲：チェックのマフラー　–　嵐

the hotel. full, chock-full of memories, really. i think its the place that really changed me from sec four velda to who i was when i first stepped into nyp as a media student.

remember when i first entered empire, audrey, hasan, serene.. i remember sharon and mark on their off day, kent, rain.. i remember how nice chef christopher was to me. remember peter, every silly thing i did when it came to him. laughs. as time went on, meeting new people - jeremy, kok aun, siok hui, ruying, linli, jacq, zhihao, fiona, berry... remember our yum cha sessions, karaoke sessions, laughing at customers, working our asses off every lunch operation. remember the tempers thrown, the shouting matches, the tears. i remembered being part of a family.

i think many stories were created in empire and in the hotel. and i enjoyed being part of it. i remember audrey calling me to her office and allowing me to cry in front of her like a baby, and giving me advice.

and like i said, chef calvin is possibly one of the dearest friends ive made in my time at the hotel. i remember when i first met him; melissa and i returned to the hotel to show off our o level results *cough cough* and calvin took one look at my result slip and wrapped it in clear wrap because he said it might get wet.

he isnt a simple character to understand, calvin. tts why it's rewarding, in a way, when you find out that he trusts you enough to tell you stuff. and he is a great telephonist. i admit, im not, because i totally have no idea what to say over a phone unless you prompt me. and i get really uneasy if there is a prolonged silence of 2 seconds and above. calvin can carry on a conversation for ages man. so he caused me my sleep last night. but im glad he found me to talk to him.

ill miss him like crazy when he leaves. really. we sort of belong to a funny categorization of friends, i think. the age gap says something alr. hahas. we dont hang out often, and when it comes to troubles we definitely dun look to each other for comfort, but somehow, we are fond of each other. (haha, sound very agatha christie-y) hes going to do really well in the future. and one day, ill be brimming with pride telling everyone that i know him.

velda.

friends.

曲：No Promises - Shayne Ward

i have been immersing myself in agatha christie for the past two days so now my mind is filled with hercule poirot, ariadne oliver and of course, miss jane marple. i think i finished four books in one day and a half, which is quite sick, now i think about it. both mdm rosnah and mr wong were surprised to see me reading something to them were "secondary school material", but well. i mean to finish her whole series of crime books. she is genius, really. how i wish i can write like tt.

sometimes there are many things that start you thinking. i think many of us go around with the assumption that the people aroound us see us the way we want them to see us. imagine how horrible it is for someone when one day he realises that people dont look at him that way at all. i put myself across rather messily, but thats what im sort of thinking about now.

the drama nobuta wo produce showed me something really important. that how scary it is when people dont believe you, especially when you are telling the truth. how scary it is when you realise the people around you have lost their trust in you. perhaps it is a calling, to treat every relationship you have with respect. whether its your girlfriend, your friends, your family, your accquaintances, your enemies even. dont take for granted anyone around you.

sometimes when you step back and think, you realise with a shock that perhaps you have been taking a certain person for granted all this while. that you expect he/she'll always be there, that he/she wont mind etc.

have i taken some people for granted? i feel that perhaps i have. i cnt possibly expect that person to be there for me all the time bah. that's just it. dont expect anything from anyone, because its not up to you to decide how that person acts. unless commitments have been made, dont expect anything. its not being fair to the people around you. and you'll be all the more happier for someone does something for you when you least expect it. =)

we all love a little surprise, dont we? stay happy. 泣くのは負けだ。

velda.

ganbatta, otouto.

曲：Babe - Take That

learned some news that made me not really happy. concerning vance. well. sometimes i am proud of my brother, and it's these times that make me realise i do love and care for him a lot. im proud of him for being so strong, and always coming home with a smile on his face even though he probably feels horrible inside. we are a family that doesnt tell each other anything when it comes to relationships, and all the more, im proud of him.

thought i wouldnt be going out these few days. but in the end.. hahas. spend money only. met up with MR alan wong and ivan yeserday for a yum cha and gossip session. had fun, because we were striving hard to carry decent conversations without insulting and insinuating. at each other. so we decided that suan-ing everyone else except us would allow us to stop making stabs at each other. had a great time. then down to wheelock to see "zap zat kisu" photo exhibition. snap that kiss, actually. but pronounced horribly by the seemingly bigshot japanese guy. ken's photo was up on exhibit! it was cool! though he didnt win, i did feel it was really good. go ken!

borrowed more agatha christie. yay. plus the two books ivan bought for me. i have many murderers to detect now. double yay. cept that i have been getting the most horrible headaches from bus rides. urghhh.

fish and co. two days back with andy and diana. just that evening alone, i met 6. SIX people i knew in orchard and in glass house. woah. everyone's out on a tuesday night? a little scary like gathering like tt.

hahas.

velda.

japan. aishiteru?!

曲：Dear Woman - SMAP

JASON and YINYIN as SEMI-2! please do support them now that the site's up and running. watch next week's episode of The Ultimate Comedian on channel 8 monday at 8pm and i think you'll see us waving Semi-2 signs about and cheering for jason. i do do do hope they get in. yinyin is really cute; and jason looks unbelievably good in the promo shots. hahas.

japanese stuff today. realised in my old blog i sort of talk about it everyday but here i mellowed down a little. >_<

surfed youtube about the whole evening last night. without bittorrent, i am missing out on A LOT of great great shows. i used to love mecha mehca iketeru by ninety-nine with a segment called kazutoridan, when they go around in a circle and count stuff. a very simple idea, yet they make it so interesting and hilarious. very ingenious. i wonder if singapore's variety circuit can ever pull that off. somehow, i feel they will only be brushed off as lame, because i dont think there are comedians out there that have that kind of image yet. let's hope jason will win the competition and introduce these ideas into singapore bah. =))

okada junichi still rocks my socks. hahas. he is so good looking, you have to see him to believe it. he can take over tsumabuki satoshi in tokyo drift as the "GO!" guy and i think girls will just melt at his sexiness. tsumabuki is just.. cute, but okada exudes a totally different feel. he did a series of vodafone ads last year, and one of them is just him shouting "aishiteru!" in different styles and at different angles. just that - and they got a good ad.

i usually refrain from posting videos; but this was good, not becuase of the idea, but because of the guy they used. hahas. you cnt get there anywhere except in japan. remember kimura takuya in Levi's ads? woah.

velda.

daijoubu, daijoubu.

曲：That's My Goal - Shayne Ward

i was really touched by this song - the lyrics, the voice and everything. i know, it's just another mass market tune, but somehow it is good. just missed my csi because i just woke up ^^". be sure ill be in front of the tv at nine pm later.

he appears in my mind first thing every morning - even now. siyu, darryn, everyone will probably shake their head in surprise, but really, dont worry, ill be fine. yet - he's there. in my mind. sometimes when someone becomes so important to you, you cnt just take the person out of your mind. i guess i have accepted the fact that everywhere i turn, memories just come rushing to me. im learning to cope with it, and i dun think im in any state right now to accept anyone else. i accepted him because he took kent out of my mind. dont think anyone else can do the same thing now bah. but like i said, i dont know. i wont close myself up, because this is exactly what's helping me heal.

でも、大丈夫。two months of holidays is a great great thing. i used to be afraid of them, because i was afraid i wont be able to control my emotions. but well. somehow it's a blessing in disguise - these two months. this blog will follow me through this period, and i guess i will see myself change. =)

respecting myself. something i bring with me, to my friends; something i believe in. telling yourself you deserve better, because you really do. and i believe that for each and every one of my friends. yum cha sessions on my schedule. i need to laugh till tears come into my eyes.

velda.

day out.

曲：ガラナ　–　スキマスイッチ

a new song by sukima switch! loved it right from the start because it made me smile. these slowly-gaining-popularity bands do seriously produce great music and write great great lyrics. though im not really sure what garana means. i need to spread this song to my friends. it makes you happy!

out with melissa yesterday. we got pangseh-ed by shawn ong. hahas, well he was working lah, so really nothing to say. so we sort of walked from bugis down to raffles and into rafflescity basement. i think tt will be one of my favourite places from now on. the new shops can keep me occupied for a whole day. and the cafes there beg to be patronised. cnt wait to spend time there. mel had one of the best takoyakis she ever had.

cartel dinner. sinful. freakingly unhealthy. friday night and town was packed. glad we went in early and were thick-skinned enough to sit till nine. decided to go down to takashimaya to wait for shawn to clock out, but he had left the workplace alr. -_-" we have decided to prepare ourselves for a treat from him. sushi tei would be great. near his workplace summore hor, mel.

my brother with his *ahem* supposed talents did a flipbook while in class and proudly posted it up on youtube. here's the video.

the worse thing is he used the notepad they gave out at mediacorp tt day we went for jason's recording! i had uses for it! hahas. luckily andy didnt want his and passed his to me. if not i will zam vance upside down. he was smiling and laughing at his own handiwork.

glad i went to the library yesterday. i have four agatha christies to keep me occupied now. ^^ oh no, three now because i finished one last night. ditched tom clancy for her, so you can see how hooked i am on murder mysteries and hercule poirot.

exams today jiayou orh. *smiles*

velda.

movies. eiga.

曲：夏の名前　–　嵐

tokyo drift. hahas. saw what i expected to see - the portrayal of tokyo in the movie was rather predictable.. yet for a movie with no plot, it kept me interested with all the cameos i saw.

妻夫木聡。tsumabuki satoshi of waterboys fame. actually, i watched the whole movie for him only. producers were smart enough to put him right at the beginning of the trailer of the movie, and because he was exceedingly handsome (that's how he was credited) with his suit and devilishly mischievous smile, he successfully brought me into the theatre to watch him light up the screen for a grand total of 30 seconds. ooohhhhh. he was freakin kakkoii. why oh why couldnt he have been in a meatier role? heard there are rumours of him marrying shibasaki kou soon. sigh. she's too old-looking! even if she's not. but well, i guess it'll be a great match. *sniffs*

北川景子 kitagawa keiko of sailormoon fame. oh, before the movie even started i was looking at the cast, and started when i saw her name. so she's in the movie too? cool! was waiting for her to appear. she didnt change eh, ever since playing sailormars. hahas. but she had quite a good role, i thought, even though she appeared a tad too many time. i mean, there's just this many times you can bump into someone in school. she is pretty, though. would love it if she was the love interest, rather. >_< mel! sailormars wor! i think she's 1988 or 1987, cnt really remember. it makes want to rewatch sailormoon live action again. can name a few people who would be interested. hahas.

i finally found out where my sekai no chuushin de, ai o sakebu dvd went to. it's with huiqi! ahh! hahas. i have been searching for a long time for the disc because i forgot who i lent it to. great. deciding to have an asian film fest at home one day. besides getting il mare from andy, and my sekachu.. hmm. maybe that sequel to sepet, and honey and clover if i can wangle it. =) have been putting off subtitling kisarazu cat's eye the movie. maybe i should get started on it soon.

busy holidays ah. can you believe i havent even finished the first sherlock holmes "mass market paperback"? heheh. words are rather small for me.

anws, CONGRATS!! to simin for tt bronze medal in her silu chaquan event in the national wushu competition!! woah. so so happy for her. aaahhhh..!!

meeting with mel and shawn tmr. did i say shawn looks like moriyama mirai? yeah, i have. millions of times i think. shawn just doesnt want to admit it.

velda.

csi:ny. carmine!

曲：Baba O'Riley - The Who

just finished watching an episode of CSI:New York. just ask anyone i talked to immediately after the show ended as to how freakin high i was. i have a new love on csi. besides eric szmanda. carmine giovinazzo!! ahhhhhh. he plays detective 3rd grade danny messer on csi:ny and he has an adorable adorable italian accent. at least, i think. ooh. this latest episode had him crying outside the hospital for his brother. woah. i cnt take it when shuai guys cry. wahaha. especially over his brother. love his glasses, by the way. =)

carmine giovinazzo as danny messer

okay, no more british accent for me le. switch switch from jamie oliver and ian wright to carmine. even his name is cute. though i dont really know how to pronounce it. =P

going to toapayoh stadium to support simin tomorrow in her wushu competition. jiayou!! she's quite stressed up, but i know she'll do fine. she's simin, after all. ^^ have faith in her!

am still very high lehs. because of csi. and i havent finished my sherlock holmes. very crime mood at the moment. expecting to see an axe murderer when i turn around later. hah! perhaps you need to get out your luminol now.

you know my methods, watson.

velda.

comedian...?

曲：Endless Story - 伊藤由奈

tired. really quite. getting on age alr eh. hahas. went out with huiqi to suntec so she could send her phone to nokia care to fix it. we sort of ambled around the place until it was time to meet the others to support jason in [the ultimate comedian] at mediacorp.

was shocked when i realised more than half the studio audience was aged 35 and above. we looked freakin out of place. seriously speaking, jason's script was the only one i thought made sense and actually sounded intellectual. the rest was either lame or just plain disgusting. maybe that's exactly what they want? i mean, huang zijiao and jiu kong, the judges, are good because they think on their feet and are witty. the contestants either just copy, spoof and are not witty at all. well, you'll get my point when you watch it next monday on channel 8. seriously was quite disappointed.

prata house after that. laughed like idiot as always. everytime eat prata with jessica will touch on stupid topics.

i have been tempted by that andy to finish up my papadum i bought. he just had to say "you xing fu de gan jue" and i'll fall into that damned trap. hokays. sherlock holmes and papadum. good mix!

fusion ah fusion. can you believe for our a la italian theme family dinner yesterday at my grandma's place, my aunt bought old chang kee's squid on a stick and tried to make me believe they were calamari? i seriously laughed my head off.

velda.

death. shi.

曲：Endless Rain - X-Japan

i wasnt planning on writing today again, but as i was talking to siyu on msn, she mentioned that her friend's friend died in an accident in perling, jb. it reminded her how close death was. then i remembered what huiqi told me. about guan min's brother who just died in a car crash last week.

i went to read about it. and just by reading the article emotions rush through me. initially it didnt affect me a lot when huiqi first told me, but as i thought of how guan min must be feeling, the tears just came.

guan min was my classmate in secondary one and two. she was my fellow student councillor in school. she was my fellow bandmate. she was my friend. and she loved her brother a lot. even now as i think back, i recall the times she spoke of her brother with pride. my heart does go out to her, even though i havent seen her in a while.

how close death is to all of us. and we dont face that until we experience the loss of a loved one. but i dont think it should be like this, because death comes to everyone no matter who you are. treasure the people around you, and remember to tell them you love them.

velda.

am i doing right?

曲：shiosai - SMAP

woke up and saw a message that caused me to think. think really hard about what i was getting myself into because of him. maybe i have been lying to myself all this while, maybe i was not willing to face up to reality. maybe i didnt face up to reality. yet i hope it's not like this. i really hope its not like this. tts why i replied to the message. this has confused me really badly.

cant help but think of what audrey told me about rabbits in chinese new year, rabbits being people belonging to the zodiac of the rabbit in the chinese calendar. she said relationships will not work out this year, so the only thing you can do is to enjoy it while it lasts. i was sceptical; i didnt believe that a relationship's success depended on chinese calculations. i dont now either, but im beginning to see the wisdom of her words. perhaps some of us are thinking too much. perhaps if we let go just a little, happiness is just around the corner.

okayys, on to happier stuff. fireworks again with andy, huiqi, ken and andre. the start was sort of disappointing, because us being people who do not understand pyrotechnics, all we wanted was for the sky to light up with a lot of fireworks. so the ending was beautiful, just golden fireworks - lots of them - in the sky. i was speechless. and i think the people around me were too. ^^

sort of had a letssqueezewitheveryone kind of day yesterday. besides the fireworks festival, we went to expo book fair and squeezed with many people to try and get $2 books. no agatha christies; just lots of tom clancys and romance novels. it wasnt tt bad lah, but there wasnt really much stuff since they all got snatched once they were put on sale.

feet hurt bad now. going back to bed to read sherlock holmes. hahas.

velda.

holiday plans.

曲：キャラメルソング　–　嵐

「ずっと君は僕の宝物さ」
heard this song on joy's blog, made me want to listen to it once more. it's quite sweet, actually, even though some parts of the lyrics not really what i would go for. but well, arashi. hahas. anws, matsujun's birthday coming! =)

end of exams. the thought of no more mugging brightened up my day. was jumping up and down in school yesterday just for the sake of it. kbox-ing with andy and jooy. only with the both of them you get to see the range of songs the taiwanese can come up with, seriously. didnt sing david tao or tuo diao because andre wasnt there. >_<

then met up with andre and ken to watch the fireworks at esplanade. i've never seen fireworks as beautiful as those i watched last night. perhaps i would today, when huiqi drags me there one more time. it is very tiring lah, but well. if we go early to camp (see? typical singaporean mentality)

catching up with old friends are in order now. mel, chef calvin, shawn, berry. lots of supporting to be done. simin, ken, jason, joy. wushu, photography, 絕對新人王, concert. jiayou jiayou! minx, remember we still have to bring dannis out for ice-cream! hahas. lots of plans!

like our theory: [for ms0501, many things can happen in two months]

it's true, you know, from past experience the whole class sorts of understands that. ^^" we'll just wait and see eh. laughs. 今の私一番幸せじゃないだけど、自分の事一番分かる時期である。

velda.

last paper tmr (must say many times to believe)

曲：夏模様　–　KinKi Kids

home after a hokay people and supervisory management paper. jess said she was shocked when she saw me walk out of the exam hall before the paper ended. but well, it was only 15 minutes earlier and you cnt leave in the last ten minutes so i sort of chao pia-ed through my checking. didnt want to sit there for ten minutes sitting there staring at answers i know i wont change. -_-" anws, tons of our classmates left early lah. the whole row was pratically empty. >_<

was studying with shawn at mac after ndp (i watched ndp in the end lah. gek patriotic and skipped my csi.) and i dont really know whether we were studying or nots. we did manage to get some things done, and then i watched this video his class at np did for some bonding orientation thing. it was funny! i mean, glad shawn is having fun in school now. ^^ he cnt wait to go back yusof ishak to see mr wong eh. hahas. sushi buffet on hor. =))

last paper tmr! yay! five papers for one semester seriously drains people out. i cnt seem to find the energy to start studying for print media. andy was joking perhaps the question would be [name one hundred traits of mr edwin tan] and we will all fail because we cnt think of anything. i just hope there's a twenty-mark question of drawing a flat plan can alr. not much lah hor.

anyone mugging for exams now please jiayou ks? mel, liting, eugene, edmund... just want to say something.

i last paper TOMORROW! hah!

=P

paiseh lah, but im seriously happy.

velda.

trick.

曲：爱恨难 - 陳偉聯

going out to study in a while. just seeing if mel wants to join me. which im 50% sure she wont. hah! she just replied me. yousan doori. k. mac for me. she's asking me to head down to np tmr to study with her. maybe i should drag her down to nyp first. hahas.

and am i skipping ndp for mr seah? yes i am. hope he reads this, because im SKIPPING the national day parade for people and supervisory management. funny ah, im willing to skip that and not my [trick] special, which just ended, and my csi on axn at ten pm laters. im no longer a product of this country. (-"-;) mel told me shomuni forever was on channel u at the same time as trick. seriously pissed because i cnt believe a terrestrial channel and a cable channel made me choose between the both of them. anws, the shomuni didnt have subs so HAH!

trick was funny as usual, but the tricks in the show have slowly degraded. not as great as before, i think. but ueda jiro and yamada naoko are still the best combination i've seen on tv. and it's not even romance! >_<

scary how media studies have affected me. i found myself wondering why e city started their [trick] ten minutes earlier at 11.50am than [shomuni]. why head-to-head programming, i wonder? hmm.

okay. stop. broadcast management is over. it's ppl and supervisory tmr. perhaps someone can lead the way to my seat in bb mac.

velda.

laugh therapy.

曲：アオゾラペダル　–　嵐

shawn and edmund can really make me laugh. studied with them late last night, and they seriously put a smile on my face. =) perhaps it's with being happy all the time bah. they just kept cracking lame jokes and laughing helplessly at their own jokes.

i cnt believe how long they laughed over this photo. i took it with my old phone about 2 years ago when we were all mugging for O levels in mac. they were like, "eh, haha so gay! hahHAHAHhahahHHAAH.." glad someone is so appreciative over my photographic skills. =P

third paper later. after that its straight home to bed. i hope. [trick] special is on tmr, and im happy! cnt wait.

oh yah, watched a bit of [manhattan love story] yesterday. i forgot how good a scriptwriter kudo kankuro is. ah! he's genius. sort of treat him like a target, he is seriously tt good. how would anyone less than genius come up with kisarazu and ping pong and manhattan and ikebukuro? woah.

funny eh, times when he doesnt cross my mind, someone will remind me of him. darryn, dont laugh lah, it's freakin true.

馬鹿。

velda.

sayonara.

曲：魔法のコトバ　–　スピッツ

今マックにいます。勉強すると思っただけど、全然集中できなくて。なんかないな、やる気が。彼のことばっかり考えて、昔の思い出とか、ドんドン頭に入るよ。ダメと知ってるよ、でもコントロールできません。

なんで私がそんなに弱いの？だって、ケンさんより強いじゃない？ベルダって誰ですか。今の私もまったく知らないよ。

落ち込んでいる時、友達と家族がいるだけど、一番大切とする人がいない。彼は私にとってそんな重大な影響でもあります。だから、凄い悔しいよ、本当に。彼の前に立ち、大声で理由を聞きたい。でも一番欲しいのは彼の前で泣く。涙が今までまだ出来なくてスゲー悔しい。

もういいだろう。ね。

もう彼は彼じゃないんだ。別の人に変わった。もうあの時のルイスじゃないだ。

私にとって、「魔法のことば」ってなんだろうな。

「俺を信じて。」「愛してる」「ずっと一緒にいたい。」という言葉もういらないんだ。全部嘘になったじゃん。

さよなら、私が愛してた人。

ベルダ。

hava rava (hava rava!)

曲：Hava Rava - WaT

woots! this song made my day yesterday. a new release last wednesday, i just had to start listening to the chorus and immediately start smiling. ^^

a hot saturday afternoon outside, but freaking freezing in the library at andre's condo. i couldnt feel my fingers since ten fifteen minutes ago le. so you imagine how hard it is to type arh.

giving up. too cold le.

anws, had a long talk with darryn ytd. woah. realised a lot of stuff. kind of cool actually. and im one step closer to recovery. =)

velda.

language barriers.

曲：直觉 - Soler

okay... exams later. woke up at seven just for the heck of it. but the really effed up part was that i couldnt sleep well last night at all. it just had to be the night before imm paper. great.

well. at least im awake. was at andre's yesterday and it was a blast revising. i mean, soon we got so high on answering each other's questions that we decided to do a nyp-sbm-ms0501 version of [the weakest link]. i think we hit $13000 before andre forgot the four steps in the experience newspaper study. oops. hahas he brought them back to zero again when he couldnt sing the theme song to sonic the hedgehog as well, because he kept reverting to the phua chu kang theme song. we had a good laugh over that. >_<

jason called somewhere in the middle of the revision, and we decided to use the questions he asked as wekest link questions. so andre geh kiang tried answering jason in chinese, which we totally didnt hear a word of because we were laughing our asses off at his chinese. ken did a better job at explaining commercialism but he got stuck at media imperialism.

so darryn decided that perhaps a hokkien version of the explanation would work for jason. it was priceless man.

"jason, ler zai media imperialism si simi bor? mm zai si liao la, bo si kan liao! company si kong si!"

or something like that. my hokkien seriously erm, cannot make it. but i understood, so huiqi and i were breathless from laughing our asses off.

but halfway through the explanation jason told darryn he didnt understand hokkien, so we decided to switch to jessica who spoke in cantonese. that was hilarious too.

"jason, ngoh kong, lei study media imperialism tat si hao, yi deng oi study.."

at the same time, my gong tong wa cnt make it too. then it was my turn. japanese! jason was clearly bewildered.

"eh, velda, watashi wa i dont know!!"

had fun. huiqi was there with me, settling her university bidding whatever thing. which seriously stressed her out, together with everyone else. she was answering calls, monitoring bids, planning timetables, i dont know. whew!

the sports hall will be cold, i guess. better bring scarf.

velda.

quotes bakkari.

曲：Someone Who Lives in Your Heart - All-4-One

not many people know i like all-4-one a lot. got tt from my mom actually, she probably had all their albums and always played them on weekends when she was cleaning the house. and me in my preteens probably lost them for her. so i went on a search for their albums when i grew older, but found only two. ^^" sorry moms. hahas.

almost ten on a thursday. the last really official day of studying. have been mugging for the past three or four days and thought i deserved a little break before moving on to andre's house later. whole body aching. heh. andy's probably tell you its because we're getting older. (-"-;) well.

you know, it's funny that im still worried about him. as i studied and went through all those module notes, i found myself worrying whether he was studying the correct stuff. i don't know, i just hoped there was someone at least with him so that they could discuss or something. perhaps half of it was guilt, that probably this thing between us caused us to be unable to help each other academically. i told you if i don't see him for a few days i'll end up thinking like this. >_< it was just a feeling tugging at my brain and wouldnt let go, and it caused me to lose my concentration. perhaps it's just me thinking too much; its been a long time since i last studied with him, so i probably have forgotten his studying style alr bahs.

[爱情最折磨的不是别离而是感动的回忆让人很容易站在原地以为还回得去] from linli's nick. thought it made a hell of a lot of sense.

sometimes you need a hug badly. hahas, melancholy always hits me when itunes switch to arashi's old songs.

typhoon generation! it runs on the lines about leaving behind the person you love after you graduate and leave for the city to work or something. scenes of freaking young arashi members dancing to this song makes me smile. hahas.

"じゃ、行ってくる。あ、さよならじゃないよね．また会えるから。"
"well, i'm leaving now. ah, its not goodbye forever. we'll meet again."　

nino said that at the beginning of the song. of course my translation isnt the best in the world, but the way he said it hit me hard tt time. okay. long entry le. im just putting of bathing and gg to andre's house. oh mel and minx, thanks about tt trick info. at least i have something to look forward to on national day! UEDA!

that face cracks me up all the time.

velda.

studying.

曲：The Way You Look At Me - Christian Bautista

andy passed me this song. it's good, actually. hah was stuck in my head on my way to school today. i have friends who can time manage very well eh. darryn had the nerve to call at 11.17am saying he was on his way, and come at 4pm.

i couldnt really concentrate today when studying. for reasons best known to myself. was quite frustrated with myself because thoughts kept popping in my head and i couldnt really control. it got to a point where it sort of frustrated me really badly. well. i guess i just have to deal with it through the whole of study week. glad i have friends who can never fail to make me laugh.

andre and yanting met huiqi today. huiqi gek shy only ah, but we were talking about how i actually told her a lot about life in school. it was quite hilarious that she blurted out that she even knew jessica's sister boyfriend. hahas. tt was surprising actually. so my friends sort of know each other through me.

school tmr again. ah! exams quick be over.

velda.

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